Glad It’s Done

There comes a time when we all must grow up. It can be hard to let some petty and childish things go, but it’s a part of life. The last few days I haven’t been feeling like talking much. I really wanted to be left alone to process some things going on in my life. For the last 24 hours my phone has actually been on silent and I haven’t been hearing my ringtone. That wasn’t something I knew about until last night when I finally looked down at my phone and noticed all of the lights on my phone lighting up like a Christmas tree. I’ve been swamped and when my phone was going off I was deep into a book I had started reading months ago, but lost interest. I did a favor for a friend a few months ago. It was something out of the kindness of my heart and I wasn’t asked to do it, but it turned out to be something I wished I had never said I’d do. You see I hate when people badger me or pester me. If I’m doing something out of the kindness of my heart please don’t put a time table on my life especially if it’s something you wouldn’t have if I had never decided to help you with. Mind you it’s a free gift to you but it’s costing me more than I bargained for. My life is busy like the next person and believe me I have more pressing matters to worry about. It’s not that I tend to drag my feet because I don’t, but I have to prioritize things of importance to me and what maybe important to you may not necessarily be important to me. It got to the point where I began to hate the project. It was no longer a love for doing it. Things turned into a just complete it so this person can shut-up. I’m being real that’s how I felt. Today I had to just put everything else aside and complete it. Once it was done and shipped off it was a sign of relief. For the last few day I didn’t want to hear from this person or anyone else who would speak their name. I was ticked off beyond belief and when you’re like that you just want to be left alone. You don’t want to hear about folks popping off talking about are you upset or what did I do to you. You just want to be left alone. Every text began to irritate you beyond belief and those who you weren’t mad at you started getting angry with just because everything started irritating you to no end. I’m being 100% honest. A big side of relief came over me today once everything was finalized and then I took a moment to look at the project I had completed and I shared it with one of my co-workers and she agreed that I have many talents. This is something I should really look into making into a business. I smiled because she was right and it was confirmation from something my mom had said. Sometimes you just have to get it done. It’s not that you procrastinate and sometimes we do, but through it all I’ve learned patience and even be careful what you decided to do out of the kindness of your heart.