Hurts Run Deep

Yesterday I had a deep conversation with my mom. It was all about where I am now and where I’ve come from. I began to tell her about a conversation I had with a friend about the hurts that run deep. Some hurts run to deep to repair. I was telling my mom how growing up she has always told me than when you offend someone you apologize and last night I was telling her about a certain situation where in my mind I considered both parties even. Go you separate way there is nothing more to say. Now I’m not saying that to be evil I was just giving her an example of how hurts run to deep. In my conversation I was telling her about my time with God on yesterday. I took a moment to dig up some good old down south gospel music - Tramaine Hawkins to be exact. I made this statement on the phone “Sometimes when you hurt yourself it leaves a nasty scar no matter what you put on it the scar still remains”. I have to watch myself when I get deep around my mother considering the family is full of preachers and soon as you say something that clicks someone wants to use it as their next sermon. Believe me I made a few deep comments in the past and sat in church and my comments were used and then shout outs where made in regards to where the topic came from. LOL – I can laugh at it now but at first it wasn’t that funny. When hurt runs deep sometimes certain actions and words can’t make the pain go away. I find that in those times I lean more to God. He can remove the hurt and even erase the memories if you ask him too. Last night I used the phrase emotionally bankrupt. I think in the last 24 years or more I have become emotionally bankrupt. When I say emotionally bankrupt I mean always making deposits into a bank that never gives you a return interest instead your always being hit with bankers fees. I told myself last night that I no longer wanted to be any part of any relationships that leave me emotionally bankrupt. Those types of relationship tend to end up with hurt that runs deep. A light bulb just went off and you’re starting to see more into my mind or at least understand me better. Bottom-line there will be some people you will have to go back and apologize too and there will be others it would be a waste of time and your efforts. You have to let your heart and God be the judge. Always talk it over with your heavenly father. Yesterday I realized that some relationship I don’t even want to revisit I just want to say my peace with God and move on. When God closes a door sometimes it’s best to just keep that door close. We cause more harm to ourselves by inviting people back into our lives that only create collateral damage. Learn to protect yourself, your spirit and your walk with God. Always remember even when the hurt run to deep God has the answer to remove it all. Stay strong in God and watch him remove even the deepest hurts.